Reason Rally

American Psycho & Marilyn Manson

 Here is are some excerpts from the book American Psycho that i just finished reading last week


"I had all the characteristics of a human being—flesh, blood, skin, hair—but my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so deep, that my normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a slow, purposeful erasure. I was simply imitating reality, a rough resemblance of a human being, with only a dim corner of my mind functioning" 


"I stare into a thin, web-like crack above the urinal's handle and think to myself that if I were to disappear into that crack, say somehow miniaturize and slip into it, the odds are good that no one would notice I was gone. No... one... would... care. In fact some, if they noticed my absence, might feel an odd, indefinable sense of relief. This is true: the world is better off with some people gone. Our lives are not all interconnected. That theory is crock. Some people truly do not need to be here." 


"Where there was nature and earth, life and water, I saw a desert landscape that was unending, resembling some sort of crater, so devoid of reason and light and spirit that the mind could not grasp it on any sort of conscious level and if you came close the mind would reel backward, unable to take it in. It was a vision so clear and real and vital to me that in its purity it was almost abstract. This was what I could understand, this was how I lived my life, what I constructed my movement around, how I dealt with the tangible. This was the geography around which my reality revolved: it did not occur to me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world could be a better place through one’s own taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, of receiving another person’s love or kindness. Nothing was affirmative, the term “generosity of spirit” applied to nothing, was a cliche, was some kind of bad joke. Sex is mathematics. Individuality no longer an issue. What does intelligence signify? Define reason. Desire- meaningless. Intellect is not a cure. Justice is dead. Fear, recrimination, innocence, sympathy, guilt, waste, failure, grief, were things, emotions, that no one really felt anymore. Reflection is useless, the world is senseless. Evil is its only permanence. God is not alive. Love cannot be trusted. Surface, surface, surface, was all that anyone found meaning in…this was civilization as I saw it, colossal and jagged…" 


Yeah this was a bloody good analysis of 80's yuppie culture in America. Oh and ill chuck in a deliciously luscious section of a description of murder from the book to add to the black humour and comedic take on Wall Street.


I start by skinning Torri alive, making incisions with a steak knife and ripping long strips of flesh from her legs and stomach while she screams in vain, begging for mercy in a thin, high voice. I stop doing this and move over to her head and start biting the top of it, hoping she realizes her punishment is ending up being comparatively light compared to what I plan to do with the other one.


Yeah.... <3, i mean to get started on Cosmos by Carl Sagan, but i can't seem to find it anywhere in stock.... damn it


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I got started on listening to Marilyn Manson's discography, although i accidentally went straight for his 3rd Album, AntiChrist SuperStar

Three verses really stuck with me the first time listening through....


"Prick Your Finger It Is Done
The Moon Has Now Eclipsed The Sun
Angel Has Spread Its Wings
The Time Has Come For Bitter Things"






"Light A Candle For The Sinners
Set The World On Fire"






"Your World Is An Ashtray
We Burn And Coil Like Cigarettes
The More You Cry Your Ashes Turn To Mud
It's The Nature Of The Leeches, The Virgin's
Feeling Cheated
You've Only Spent A Second Of Your Life
My World Is Unaffected, There Is An Exit Here"

1. This picture of Chicago Christians who showed up at a gay pride parade to apologize for homophobia in the Church.

... and the reaction from the parade.

2. This story about Japanese senior citizens who volunteered to tackle the nuclear crisis at Fukushima power station so that young people wouldn't have to subject themselves to radiation.

3. This picture of two Norwegian guys rescuing a sheep from the ocean.

4. This sign at an awesome bookshop.

5. This poll about what Snooki should name her child.

6. The moment in which this Ohio athlete stopped to help an injured competitor across the finish line during a track meet.

17-year-old Meghan Vogel was in last place in the 3,200-meter run when she caught up to competitor Arden McMath, whose body was giving out. Instead of running past her to avoid the last-place finish, Vogel put McMath's arm around her shoulders, carried her 30 meters, and then pushed her over the finish line before crossing it.

7. This exchange between a 3-year-old girl and a shopping centre.

8. This note that was handed to a waiter along with a $20 bill by an elderly lady in his restaurant.

9. This sign at an awesome Subway restaurant.

10. This picture of a villager carrying stranded kittens to dry land during floods in Cuttack City, India.

11. This sign at an awesome dry cleaner's.

Plaza Cleaners in Portland, OR, helped over 2,000 unemployed workers who couldn't afford dry cleaning. The store's owner estimated that it cost his company $32,000 dollars.

12. This photograph of a man giving his shoes to a homeless girl in Rio de Janeiro.

13. This picture of a firefighter administering oxygen to a cat rescued from a house fire.

14. And this one.

15. This interaction between a Guatemalan girl and a tourist she just met.

16. This gesture from a neighbour.

17. These photos of two children collaborating to rescue a dog who had fallen into a ravine.

18. This note on a young family's check.

19. This exchange between a protester and a soldier during a protest in Brazil.

20. These pictures of a man jumping into rough waters to rescue a stranger's Shih Tzu in Melbourne.

Sue Drummond was walking her beloved Shih Tzu, Bibi, on a pier in Melbourne, when a fierce gust of wind picked him up and hurled him into the rough waters of the bay. A passerby, Raden Soemawinata, who happened to be on the pier that day to scatter his grandmother's ashes, wasted no time in stripping down and diving into the bay to rescue the animal.

21. And this photograph of two best friends on a swing.

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Most days i sit and think about how the human race is a ravenous poison that is quickly destroying this precious earth that has bore us for so many lifetimes and how Mother Gaia would be better off without the disease that is man.

Yet somedays my faith in humanity is slightly elevated by simple acts as the shown above

Past

I've had many unhappy and depressing things happen to me in the past. but due to my religious upbringing i suppressed all my emotions. When i began to forget restraining myself i began to morph into a hate filled and rage fuelled individual and I've been like that ever since. In 2006 during my first year at high school i thought i could kill myself in my sleep. Somewhere in the back of my foolish mind i seemed to recall hearing that if you slept underneath your blanket head under with no oxygen you would die in your sleep. I tried doing that for maybe a week, but i always instinctively twitched and created an opening in the bed for oxygen to rush into my lungs. 

I turned to certain music to keep myself upbeat and happy but i needed something more. Before i began this blog, I'd started to keep several notebooks. They were not diaries that i wrote into everyday. Every once in a while i'd pour into these notebooks all my anger and sadness and bitterness but after going through several of them, i realised i hadn't been able to move on at all. I was still angry and pissed and unhappy. Callously i burned most of these books. I've always had a fascination with fire. No i'm not an arsonist although if there were no laws i'd probably burn down some peoples houses for the hell of it. To me fire represented passion, love, anger, revitalisation, cleansing and a few other emotions that i can't quite put down onto paper. I embraced the idea of destroying my past with fire in some sort of sentimental ritual. But naturally all it did was grant me a moment of satisfaction. Even more so it instilled in me a realisation of how easily someone or somethings existence could be erased. It was the day that i took on the position of a nihilist. 

In order to ensure a smooth transition from my current life into the next chapter of living alone i began to search my room for any important documents i might need to take with me. It was during this search that i came across a final notebook which had survived the fire of my own personal purgatory. I looked at the book and its last entry was 8/8/11. I had written down some notes for myself.


It looked something like this


• Opinions are good but be prepared to defend or admit defeat.
• Don't set unrealistic goals.
• Speak out more often.
• Don't try and mould yourself into something you are not.
• Never lose your sense of independence or identity.
• This was the Year 12 picnic.

I'll burn this one later

@#$%^&

Greece is dragging the rest of Europe down economically and thus will set off a domino effect unlike any other

Greece -> (Spain Russia etc.) Europe -> (Asia) China -> USA & UK & AUSTRALIA (mind you i know nothing about economics just what I've gathered from looking at newspapers periodically)

The unemployment rate is now 5.1% in Australia. (Well shit I'm probably gonna run out of my saved money before i get any sort of job)

There are rich ass corporations and politicians and people who drive shiny SUV's wearing expensive designer clothes while driving by orphanages homeless shelters and prisons to megachurches so they can tell each other just how FUCKING AWESOME JESUS IS while children are dying of AIDS and unclean water and horrible diseases in Africa and other less fortunate countries. Uprisings have occurred and failed in Egypt Libya and currently Syria as well, with governments killing their own people by the thousands without caring about anything else except their stupid fucking regimes

The world is a MESS. Global Warming, Terrorism, Animal Cruelty and soo much more... and we are all just individuals who have no power over anything not even our lives thanks to the massive influence our unconscious has over our conscious lives.

In Africa, we have a brutal tyrant who is doing his best to dismantle the culture and economy of his nation simply to stay in power. His neighbors know he's barbaric but are afraid to criticise him because they are pussies. Having stolen an election, he's now clamping down on the press, persecuting his opponents, destroying the economy of his nation, and doing his best to turn it into a complete sewer pit. His nation once exported food, now it has to import food and it won't be able to get enough and there's going to be widespread famine. A lot of people there have already died a lot more will soon and theres fucking NOTHING being done about it.

Elsewhere in Africa you have routine widespread slavery. Children by the thousands are sold by their parents to slavers who take them to other nations where they are used and abused until they grow up, and then turned out on their own to live horrible lives in even more abject poverty than those they left. Entire villages are raised to the ground, the men killed, the women and young girls raped and murdered and  the remaining young boys indoctrinated into child soldiers and soon enough they are so brutally mindfucked they don't hold back from murdering even old friends or relatives.

The HIV epidemic could be stopped in its tracks right now. We don't need a vaccine to prevent the spread of AIDS in Africa; what we need is 500 billion fucking condoms and someone telling Africans the truth about sex and disease. No, having sex with a virgin will not cure you. No, HIV is NOT caused by poverty or witchcraft; and if you have unprotected sex with someone who is infected then you have a chance of getting infected too and once that happens there is no cure, so don't fucking do it you fuckwits.

FUCKING CATHOLIC PRIEST CUNTS who spread the lie that condoms actually SPREAD AIDS. Stupid hierarchy of priests and cardinals and bishops and popes in their fucking Vatican City fortress. Hypocritical faggots.

We should nuke the Middle East and take out that shiny shit stained block Mecca. Nuke Vatican City and every megachurch in America and every synagogue and cathedral, maybe we'll let the Buddhists slide on this one. But Dalai Lama that shitcunt who's parading around the world about saving Tibet when he just wants to reattain the old priestly privileged cult "for the GOOD OF HIS STARVING PEOPLE and to FUND HIS GUERILLA FORCE AGAINST CHINA". Disembowelment and eye gouging for lesser offences? Accepting CIA funding for training anti Chinese resistance? What the fuck man, good work China for fixing that shit out with secularism. Maybe nuke Africa as well to end the suffering of the starving children and AIDS/other pandemics infected people . Its not like anyone else can be fucked to do shit.

South America. Rich in resources and space and land and not yet overpopulated (kept by drugged up retards), South America should be the dream continent, more successful than any other. It is dominated by only two languages, it doesn't have a thousand year legacy of hatred and revenge, it is isolated from the rest of the world both physically and culturally. But its is dominated by a single fucking monotheistic religion (brainwashed hicks). Brazil has every advantage a nation could want; and yet it is stagnant and full of desperately poor people, living in slums and killing ear other for drugs and whatnot. Argentina cannot seem to get its economic shit in order. It's about to collapse and there's definitely a danger of war as a result. Colombia has a horrible crime problem (and my dad wanted to retire and move there HAVE FUN YOU DIABETIC FUCK). Peru is little better off. And yet, with all of South America's problems, it's still better off than Africa or Asia. But it's still PRETTY fucked.

In Asia you seem to have people who think that there is some sort of political statement to be made by throwing hand grenades into a church. You've got Hindus and Muslims that think that it's worth fighting over who gets to build a church on a certain site, and who are willing to kill hundreds of the others, just on general principles. They may even be willing to use 21st century weapons to settle scores dating back a thousand years. WW3 please you fundamentalist shitfucks

South Asia is also no better. Cambodia is the world's poster child for genocide Viet Nam is a bicycle ridden economic shithole, and let's not even talk about Myanmar. In China you have a gerontocracy holding onto power by its fingernails, living on the past glory of a long march that happened three generations ago and talking about how everything they do is in the name of "the people". In the meantime, those who live in North Korea are suffering through conditions unimaginable to anyone who doesn't live in Cambodia, or Viet Nam, or Ethiopia, or Congo, or, well, come to think of it, it's actually not that unusual in the third world, is it? You have a corrupt and incompetent government which has so badly raped the nation that its people are starving in huge numbers. Somalia, Myanmar, I guess lots of places have gone through that. Even though North Korea is importing mountains of food, millions of tons of it, it is possible that as many as a million people there may have starved already slowly and painfully. And the communist faggots even have the nerve to execute their own people for cannibalism when they are the reason their people starve anyway.

Radical Islam has already declared a 3rd Jihad on the West, North Korea against South Korea, shit that would be a pussy fight compared with what that Iraq & Russia military pact is gonna create. As soon as those radical Muslim fucks get enough nuclear weapons and they feel they are ready to destroy the West its all over. They're already in our countries, yellow fever would be like a wave in a bathtub compared the tsunami of religious dogmatic shit we gonna see soon. 

Fucking Muslims and their sharia laws. Fuck off back to Afghanistan if you want to practice this shit

All because their holy fucking Qu'ran says that they will conquer the whole world. Goddamn it. If i ever find a Qu'ran I'm gonna burn that shit. Damn this world is soo far down the shit i think i might actually live long enough to see it trip in its own nuclear waste pile

I plan to leave mid july and it seems that my family wants to sell their business and move to a farm. If i could tell them how much i didn't care about their fate i would tell them but i don't know if i can be bothered to even write it down in the letter that i plan to leave behind for these piles of afterbirth.

Ellas mother called me a few nights ago to explain the necessity of having a degree of some sort and i began to think hmm i don't plan on living past 40 and i can't see myself in uni for 3 years straight.. well if i was gonna go for something i actually wanted... Bachelor of Arts (Asian Studies & International Relations) it was my first preference before my parents shit stormed about how science degrees were the way to go and if i didn't like what they choose i could pack my shit and leave because apparently i wasn't a team player god what the FUCK

HOWEVER turns out since i dropped out without taking the exams I'm now blacklisted for any future uni courses, meaning if i ever want to go back to uni in 5 or 10 years or whatever, i have a record so I'm down at the bottom of the list of applicants.

We live in a world where doctors destroy health, lawyers destroy justice, universities destroy knowledge, governments destroy freedom, the press destroys information, religion destroys morals and banks destroy the economy. AW SHIT NIGGA THIS WORLD IS GOING TO THE CESSPOOLS