Tiredness

I'm tired... just so tired of pretending anymore.... why am i still here?  Why do i bother staying around and studying when i know i'm going to drop out?.... i guess i just want to have saved a bit more money... i'm just soo tired of being in this house... being two-faced for so long is draining and sometimes i forget to watch what i do and say and give away what i'm really thinking...

I have 6 chemistry practicals to do over this week and i haven't studied chemistry since week 2. I think i'll drop out after this semester and use the remaining time to save up and look for a place to stay and a job before the next census date. 

fucking hell the future is intimidating, knowing that i could potentially end up homeless and broke.... but i feel that i'll be infinitely happier if i was anywhere else but here